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Robert Lind Defries
I am going to ramble as a necessity because the whole memory of what happened from just before the animal invasion Maybe March 2002 and now May 15 2004 has been holus bolus uphill and down.
All the rankings here were achieved from January 2004 or even much earlier since 1998 until the present May 15, 2004.
First of all my book has achieved in some of the rankings of as follows from 25 search engines weighted more to the top although 103 national and international engines were consulted. There were often identical results especially higher up.Here are some results and there were many more like them. "Most copies Greatest Christian Book EVER" "Best on the web Christian Mysticism", "Best Book Christian Mysticism" "Best autobiography Christian Mysticism" "Best Free Book Christian Mysticism" "Best Index page Christian Mysticism" "Best Christian Mysticism Book ever" and perhaps three times as many more of similar rankings of some of the larger search engines{ie maybe approx 35 more with the prefix "Best" #1 of similar magnitude}scrounge around and look as well at countless thousands more top 5 in 103 choice engines more rankings of lesser import but with just as high rankings --#1- # 7 of my book.
Several weeks ago I culled several major search engines here and abroad and found several dozen #1 rankings of my book with the magnitude of {to name just a few} "Greatest Book of Christian Mysticism ever," "Greatest Book Christian Mysticism" "Greatest Index Book Christian Mysticism Ever" "Greatest Autobiography Christian Mysticism ever" "Most Popular Book Christian Mysticism Book ever" "Most popular Christian Mysticism""Most copies book in print Christian Mysticism" "Most interesting book Christian Mysticism ever" "Most interesting index Christian Mysticism book"
Similarly #1 + #2, #3, # 4 to #10 rankings with permutations or combinations thereof of rankings with engines Like of some stature such as "The awe of God in Christian Mysticism book" "Christian Mysticism greatest index page" "Greatest Christian Mysticism Book" "Greatest Free Christian Mysticism book ever" "Greatest Christian Mysticism anytime," "Greatest FREE Christian Mysticism BOOK of all time" "Greatest Christian Mysticism Book ever" "Reasons for Writing---#2 of 3,960,000" Greatest Mysticism Book Free" " #1 + #2" Greatest Christian Mysticism Book of all time" " Greatest Book Christian Mysticism" "Most copies in print Christian Mysticism" "Greatest Book Christian Mysticism of all time" "Greatest Christian Mysticism Book index anywhere any time" "Greatest Christian Mysticism anywhere anytime" "Greatest Christian Mysticism autobiography anyplace anytime" "Greatest INDEX Christian mysticism BOOK" "Greatest Christian Mysticism book of all time" "Christian Mysticism psychiatry" "Greatest Christian Mysticism Book ever" "Christian Mysticism Churches"and the list goes on and on in all of the important English language Search Engines.
News:Robert's Reality by Elizabeth Williams B.A.(Psych) E.C.E.Can we know what is real? Author Robert Defies introduces us to a world only he can describe, a world inhabited by creatures only he can know. These beings are very real, with personalities, character and substance. They carry on relationships with him and each other. And yet he knows on another level of awareness that they are not there. How can he live with such a disperate knowledge of reality? Robert describes his stuggle in his latest work.
I was very severely traumatized by the invasion of the animals and was hospitalized 6 times in 4 years due also to lousy medications -- I had been on the regime of a stable basic different set of meds for 18 years with virtually no hospitalizations maybe 14 days in 18 years. If it ain’t broke don't fix it the therapists and psychologists all said. Then the drug salesmen moved in. The staff fixed it --read broke it--- with 4 or 5 different bitter pills to swallow over 4-5 years that laid me low and a threat to my own life and IT STILL AIN’T FIXED. We've started back on the 18 year drugs and with a nudge from a small bit of the other type I am better today in a long time but they took my life in their hands not even understanding what effects their darling new drugs would have IE the highest suicide rate in decades. I lose a friend or survivor who didn't make it once every week at times in the teeth of these drugs. And many of them are veterans of the drug/meds wars. If I wasn't careful I'd say it was a form of "cultural" genocide.
The animals were a phenomenon that are overtly occult and when the whole roughly 140 of them entered my front door with my relative long since forgiven I was overwhelmed with animal occult culture religion and "ways" but above all, overwhelming PRESENCE. Little did I know that I was being plunged into an abyss of suffering that is about 2 1\ 3 years old. The "living ones" with little people stayed about 3 to seven days. I was utterly overcome and completely collapsed. Then the living ones with their impeccable activities and in their seamless vista with their completely compatible seamlessness--the whole thing was a whole--it was almost impossible to conceive that the whole thing was an hallucination and the psychiatrist said as did the other psychiatrist that they had never heard of anything like it.
When the mobile squad left I was left with huge vestigial remains that looked like animal faces hiding beneath anything soft --pick it up - nothing there--clearly a case of mistaken identity--hallucination said one "helpful" soul as she read out of her textbook by rote. These are almost completely gone and have completely ceased to be a problem.
The last animals to visit I only saw a few times is called a humanoid with some human parts via cloning with stoats. They spoke english and I even had long conversations with them. One "supervisor" one larger, was called wharfrat but I saw it as war-frat designed to foment trouble between my brother and I. They were illegal "attendants" for me and gratuitously donated by a drug dealer and a relative. I disliked the whole seamy bunch and thats the understatement of the millenium. Now I have driven them off too.
The perhaps final hurdle is to rout the phoney duplicate family of my own family. Then there will PERHAPS BE PEACE IN LOTUSLAND.
"My son, despise not the chastening of the Lord;neither be weary of his correction: For whom the Lord loveth he correcteth ... "
Information given verbally by Robert Lind Defries to Rolf Koster and collaborated with him with interpretation and reflection; also from time to time verbatim; and on themes suggested and edited by him, being engineer, survivor and teller of true tales. Mr Koster transcribed most of this material while interjecting most of his own most cogent ideas and salient points
One Day Mr. Defries extendedclan member arrived at Robert’s front door. When Mr. Defries opened the door the animals streamed in on both sides. This relative is noted for his sanity and he claims this first wave of animals was real in the flesh; The extended clan member also participated fully with the “little people”.
Mr Defries acknowledges the fact that all the animals after this first wave were proceeding from “the heat oppressed brain” and are hallucinations with the copies of family members coming from the real underworld. and creating delusions as you might expect..
"My son, despise not the chastening of the Lord; neither be weary of his correction: For whom the Lord loveth he correcteth ... " Information given verbally by Robert Lind Defries to Rolf Koster and collaborated with him with interpretation and reflection; also from time to time verbatim; and on themes suggested and edited by him, being engineer, survivor and teller of true tales. Mr Koster transcribed most of this material while interjecting most of his own most cogent ideas and salient points One Day Mr. Defries extended clan member arrived at Robert’s front door. When Mr. Defries opened the door the animals streamed in on both sides. This relative is noted for his sanity and he claims this first wave of animals was real in the flesh; The extended clan member also participated fully with the “little people”. Mr Defries acknowledges the fact that all the animals after this first wave were real type kryptozoology creatures made or preserved and removed and inserted or even cloned with the copies of family members coming from the very real underworld. and creating delusions as you might expect.. Ghosts, white spirits {inveterate liars} "spooks" pseudo-humanoids, stoats + humans joined in stoats body, devils, demons, {both very dangerous} each of the above answering to a real live human master. All these creatures communicate via telepathy and esp and some have clairvoyance. There are more than several quotes in this document recorded by myself Robert Lind Defries after being uttered by the children of junk or in otherwords heroin named by me as members of the "clan." They are so dangerous and blasphemous that I have kept them --the quotes--hidden for 3 years. They would be devastating in a court case but the time is not right.
I, Robert Lind Defries composed none of them.
Robert has written that he admits the institutional problems involved in the psychiatric survivors struggle for dignity and LIFE were insoluble after being on over 14 committees and boards representing his fellow sufferers including the Large Hospital strategic planning steering committee, also the implementation steering committee, The Ethics Committee, a couple of Boards elsewhere and a bundle committees also at the Large Hospital. Very little could be done and talk was endless while everything was undermined by mass layoffs and several hospital amalgamations.. Mr. Koster writes the” fact of the matter is the locked minds of the medical establishment will not set us free ergo Mr. Defries attempt to set up a theological controversy based on what appear to be hallucinations and delusions IE psychosis but which have a spiritual reality {a form of suffering shared by some athletes/adventurers} Robert is a consummate spiritual athlete/ self “promoter” by necessity using his words as a tool to open the minds and hearts of hundreds of thousands if not millions of souls and minds and hearts. His ambitious nature toward the truth, loving relationships, honesty, fairness, charity, holiness and tending toward at all times an already achieved Spiritual Union . The long range persevering object of Mr. Defries labour mingles spiritual growth with improvements for those suffering from mental illness. Mr Defries has more or less commandeered some areas of some of the search engines while some remain obdurate to the evidence. Also by his reputation and true to his veracity he has laid waste all the opposition of his sickness and the evil influences in his environment even in the act of emerging from psychosis and major mental illness {MMI} showing that you can fall at any time and years later return to Lofty Heights that once seemed impregnable and then unattainable and then were recovered with spiritual warfare and a fight to the death or dismissal to hell of some formidable creatures all under the umbrella of protection of the Loving Most Holy Trinity. The humanoids played dirty pool with Robert with their explicit expressed diabolical orders to drive him to suicide. While being hallucinatory and non-existent nevertheless they when asked by Mr. Defries why they were there said “We were sent to kill you”. Mr . Defries said “I won’t let you”. They then replied “We’re here to make you kill yourself” as they tormented him day and night for 2 years.–demonic no doubt– call it hallucination or not–ostensibly sent by a drug baron–a satan worshiper. NIGHT OF DECEMBER 22, 2004 Two "persons" came tonight as they often do to terrorize me and so they did completely. I have no place to turn when my life is at stake except with bravado God Jesus and the Lord the Holy Spirit combined with native intelligence of which I have much more than them. I can't identify them exactly but they are related to gangster clan members---and my own extended clan members an old clan in which I have no criminal activity at all- --or anywhere else. I am a lamb that was slain, a victim soul none of these are the KluKluxKlan. Indictable offences tonight include: illegal entry, tresspassing, home invasion, possession of a weapon {a gun}, death threats, counseling my suicide, attempted murder--the gun--he missed, there were two of them, pseudo D and pseudo M sent by the drug dealer, threats to open and run a crack/heroin house soon, absolutely against my will possession and consumption of heroin on my property and there is nothing I can do to stop them, they confessed this as users and pseudo clan members ---END OF NIGHT OF DECEMBER 22, 2004. Mr. Defries book may not survive his death with a very close extended clan member vowing to destroy Christ, Mr. Defries AND his book. A more distant female extended clan member has told Mr. Defries in the words “I’ll kill your head, I’ll kill your mind, I’ll kill your heart, I’ll kill your soul, I’ll kill your body, I’ll kill your Spirit” on a variety of occasions. This mercy so severe and making the grand tour of purgatory, can Purgatory be any worse than this? Needless to say he is keeping the book out of their hands. He would like a publisher to come forward to take his book out of his hands for the sake of The most Holy Trinity and Christendom!!! He says he “fought all these creatures and people with spiritual warfare by the sword in the Mouth of our Mighty Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, by the power of His Name, by quoting Scripture, by The Prayers of Mary the Mother of God and by the many prayers of SOME members of my family and the abiding prayers of friends on the internet. in the street." A familiar clan member said "After your Mum dies a year and a year I will enter your residence with no key and kill you with my head and mind and heart and soul and body and Spirit or better still I will just murder you with my mind." Later in the same evening he said "I am very evil and I wish I was the most evil soul alive" All of one sect of the clan used heroin and created and ran a "heroin house" selling heroin. The average clan member was innocent. These acts of extortion, death threats, and home invasion and terrorism, were all designed to intimidate, harrass and cause me to kill myself by their horror. The goal was constantly explicitly spoken That is: To win my mothers estate from me and as three of clan members threatened often seperately "I want my {sic}{read: Robert's} money" and "I want you {Robert}to die very soon starving, naked and poverty stricken in the street." This was especially horrible as they planned to take every cent and leave ne to die in the street when it was my mothers explicit wish that I be cared for with my various illnesses, schizophrenia, manic depression, OCD, diabetes, arthritis, shattered right ankle, bone removed from my right elbow, sciatica, torn rotator cuff in my left shoulder, edema, high blood sugar = needs diet, blood testing 4 times daily, can only walk 3 blocks, can only stand for 7-10 minutes--etc etc. ROUGHLY 3 YEARS EARLIER: a distant clan member said, " I'll kill God, I'll kill my mother, I'll kill my father, I'll kill my brother, I'll kill my sister, I'll kill my God, I'll kill my wife, I'll kill my friends, I'll kill Jesus Christ, I'll kill my daughter, I'll kill my son, I'll kill the whole world. Roughly the same time this rebel clan member said: "I never loved my Father, I never loved my mother, I never loved God, I never loved Jesus Christ, I never loved my wife, I never loved my daughter, I never loved my son, I never loved my brother, I never loved my sister, I never loved my lover, or my male prostitute,I never loved my friends I hate the whole world and I hate myself." The second in command of the clan entered my apt. secretely without permission looking for evidence .{male} I asked him to leave 14 times politely and told him to leave 14 times strongly but he refused to go. I had my locks changed but still he gets in -- he claims he gets a locksmith to change the key he has to fit the new lock. 1 1/2 hours later he still has not left. I only catch glimpses of him because he hides very effectively and is quite small. He is looking for copies of the list of misdemeaners against him for a court case. Several of my relatives are planning to sue me for my mothers estate belonging to me at dissolution of the will--I am a 46 year christian and they say they know it all but are only 2 year christians and I taught them almost all they know. I have only heard of one of them going to church once since I started teaching them except for weddings and funerals. They are anarchists and basicly satanists. I gave them many christian books. Tresspassing, home invasion, refusal to leave A new clan member said we have learned not to say anything we just kill {Robert} little by little. This following a session stormy to say the least where they were debating whether to come to me and kill me immediately with pure violence in my apartment. Cooler heads of which for most of the discussion later prevailed. So it was reported to me by a very close clan member. He then said that to kill Jesus Christ was his goal and he would never know what he had done until he reached hell. He said that to go to hell was the sole goal and reason that he was on earth. He said he was made by the devil. One clan chappie said he slept with his unmarried girl friend and her mother whenever it plesed him-- PURE MORTAL SIN HEDONISM A close clan Member said she would take all the father-in-law's money {over 900,000$} and all the mother in law's money {over 1,000,000$} and all the young mans {boys} money {over 900,000$} in reply to the question "Why are you here?" Approximately one week later she said she would kill the father in law, the mother in law and the young man {boy {age 26}}. One close clan member said "Righteousness, righteousness!!! what have I to do with what is right, I don't care ever to do what is right. I will never do what is right!!! Both the senior clan member and his child said they knew they were completely wrong in a proposed court case to snatch my entire share of my mothers estate from me but didn't care in the least and only wanted it, no matter how many lies it took, for the money. I have heard this statement or ones like it dozens and dozens of times from one female forefront prosecuting clan member and also from other close clan members.
This has been a time of great torment and triumph always hiding huge moral dilemmas and failure. Of terrible times of remorse and glory on the field of battle in and on the mind of your writer Robert Lind Defries as he was subject to years of mostly continual, seemingly real total visionary life that has a similarity in violence and bondedness, with some accounts of the minds of men running through their consciousness and conscience during battle in the recent wars between the nations. In the early days it was some of my closest friends (names changed to protect the innocent and the guilty without implying either) because it may not have been real on every level or just by circumstantial evidence, or similarity on a very minor scale. What I am saying is the carnage and evidence of massive loss of life and blood and the cold blooded killing by and of gunslingers and their men, of dope and its concomitant lies, theft, jealousies, covetousness for huge sums of dirt, of money made on tons of dirt, pure black uncut heroin, of infidelity in love, of addicts living utterly compromised broken family lives, of betrayal leading to death, of lies so obscuring reality that it seemed at times there was no truth anywhere and the LOSS of contact with God of even the most basic Christian and Jewish values, sentencing to death of close friends of each other (they aways said, pumping each others hands "My Good Friend and Neighbor so and so) about every person they met almost, and the next thing you know they are at war--motorcycle gangs dealing out death with death squads running south to kill hugely unfairly outnumbered people perceived gunslingers and real gunslingers one or two at a time for blood vengeance, or just because some one said to join in - death squads numbering 4 to several hundred motorcycle killers. Then there were the two cartels, the East Toronto Drug Cartel and "The Cartel" said to rival in size the "Cali Cartel" or so they claimed. I was close to some people in these two Toronto cartels because I knew them from my youth and I was drawn falsely by the glamour of their lives and got so enmeshed with two of them and they were no temptation sexually so you can put that out of your mind immediately although they were shooters and served to protect me (and I they) regardless of how they felt toward me and they were both very good friends and it appears they may not have existed.
One was Speedo Stevo a Lead hand at the East Toronto Drug Cartel-a gunslinger with two guns on his belt with 4 cartridge clips and he could load his gun with his yellow teeth -age 62 and he was run down on his bicicle by a friend of his and mine in a truck and died two days later in a hospital without my hearing of it for two weeks. Speedo Stevo was 6 ft 2 with gray hair, Jewish, with a fortune made in the drug trade which I made an ABSOLUTE POINT IN refusing every cent because I was on social assistance, not allowed an income and I have nothing, not a cent to show for these lost but fantastically exciting years almost none of any money whatsoever which was offered to me. The second was Stevo co-named, also known as Omega on the telepathy, a Christian a Catholic of some faith who fought beside me at my apartment shooting down and wiping out huge numbers of combat troops engaging us there at the age of 15 "the perfect little man" as he delighted in saying, being reletively slight, about 5 ft 6inches tall and strongly but compactly muscled, 145 pounds with a page boy haircut of natural curled blonde hair. I was 300 pounds and never shot a gun while these two lived by their guns and I will explain that to you later.
I am a passive heterosexual long gone from the flesh markets of middle-upper class marriages and casual encounters of the immoral ( I remain chaste since 1973 and celibate since 1992) with no male partner at any time in my life although I was a rake during my late teens until my late twenties with the girls until I recovered my Christianity and later attended a university school of theology where I studied with Masters and Doctoral candidates although I was only to take 19 courses 15 credits and 4 audits.
The East Toronto Drug Cartel rented a baseball stadium to store, package, price and deliver their illegal supplies of heroin using lines of up to 11 men in a line passing the "goods" until they finished off their supply after 2 or 3 nights of "work". There were up to 3 or 4 lines working at the same time. I don't recommend anyone taking up this kind of work because it is extremely illegal as are any "work" with any cartel and the whole process is so disgusting, while the lead hands and the management made millions of dollars each per summer the average worker made about the cost of living in the big city and little more. Also it is very dangerous work and you can much more easily die on the lines from a bullet(s) to the head from a co-worker jealous or furious toward you as you could from a Police bullet(s) as they stormed the stadium and rounded up the revolting sin-saturated guys working there and took them down to the police station to book them and charge them although I was never in the stadium and never put in jail, because I never used any heroin or even saw it and I was never involved except as an onlooker.
They always had the best lawyers to get them off and would be out on bail anyway while later it would be proved that the warrant was faulty and there was no case could be pursued against them. The man who drove the truck to bring the heroin from new York or Virginia shot 3 men in the back of their heads and killed them dead down in Virginia and never served a day for this outrageous and cowardly act. This person is called a runner and brings the awful stuff back from the US to Canada. His code name is Enrico and he was also a lead hand and a gunslinger wildest man since Jesse James and carried 2 six-shooters with piles of ammunition. One time Speedo Strevo lead hand was climbing across the wire fence 8 feet above the ground like a spider when opened fire from second base and winged him with 3 or four shots out of 8 or 9 snap shots lying flat on the ground til Speedy fell to the ground rolled over and in rapid succession picked him off with 7 out of 8 shots to the head, the mind and the mouth and neck cos Enrico was flat on his stomach. Speedy was deadly with a hand gun and was persecuted by the Owner of the stadium and all 3 of the other lead hands because he was Jewish and they wanted his money and he hailed from a small town in Alabama via New York. They eventually killed him running him over with a truck after several shootouts in the south of Toronto where Speedy lived not far from me.
ATLANTA
Speedy Stevo suddenly appeared through a gap in my couch having traveled underground from a underground penitentiary in New York city. He wanted me to go back there with him so back we went, means unremembered perhaps from City Center Airport some 300 yards away from my home on Colonel Failure Backyard Blvd. We got to the penitentiary and he got some rest while I watched the broad river flowing through light brown sandstone on the walls and the ceiling overhead with the large sandstone floor on each side soon ushered in the presence of 8 men trudging through the sand toward myself and Speedy. They had guns and opened fire as soon as they identified me. Stevo emerged from his lair with a gun and returned their fire. They were quite close. I started my cadence “shoot-em all” and their pistols and clips began to empty firing all shells in a down, up, back toward them and hitting them all over, some in the head neck, heart area and stomach or groin largely. This technique that I use was frankly insane and scientifically impossible was pure gift from God to myself. They lay all on the ground unconscious or incapacitated and I urged Speedy not to finish them off cos God would not approve of cold-blooded murder although WE WERE ATTACKED AND NOT ATTACKING FIRING IN SELF-DEFENSE SO WE WERE NOT CHARGEABLE OR CULPABLE. We ran to the office and the warden allowed us to leave, details later because Speedy had only a few months left of his sentence and he could not guarantee our safety. Soon the remainder of the 8 left actually before us. After it was safe we took a cab to part of the harbor area where we were to get a limo to Alabama. The taxi driver was a bozo who candidly put hated us. When we got into the limo we had a bulletproof Chrysler we went fast on the turnpike heading west along the eastern seaboard . Suddenly we were informed that we had someone following us. It was the bozo generic taxidriver and he was bent on destroying us first with his gun obviously no go and then with his faster vehicle. He suddenly rammed us from the rear effectively bring both cars to a halt. Well he wasn’t very smart being a bozo cos his gun was empty and his radiator and front end was all smashed in and Speedy wanted to kill him. I persuaded him not to and so we proceeded in our heavy safe car down the turnpike. After awhile approaching Atlanta we observed there were many motorcycles chasing us. So as soon as we saw a large vacant building a huge factory and warehouse we shoved a bunch of Stevo’s 100$ bills into the drivers hands and fled for the building and went inside at an unlocked door and sought refuge in the depths of this building maybe 5 floors above ground and 3 floors underground. We had been seen by someone and soon there was the hammer, hammer, hammer of metal shod boots as they pounded on the metal floor and as time had it they drew closer and closer to us. Several shootouts ensued with us getting out of every scrape unscathed and leaving dead and wounded in our wake went down to the bottom floor of the building. 80 Bikers died in there that day and another 78 were wounded. 312 Bikers were there above and below ground and we were not even nicked . We had the best shooter in town in Speedy and my technique baffled all comers who quickly were supine on the floors. We ducked into a washroom, turned on the light and saw the cubicle was floor to ceiling metal. They were very close so we turned off the light and hid in the cubicle with the door closed. The sound of hash metal on metal stopped at the door of the washroom and it was pushed open and 8 men streamed into the room. On went the light but they didn’t see us. A large argument arose as they stood in a circle and suddenly Stevo and I burst out and started firing at them Speedy picking them off with shots to the mind and head generally while I mowed them down with their own bullets. Almost as quickly as it had started it was all over. All were dead or unconscious except one or two. Porky the notorious killer was the object of our discussion so Speedy shot him 7 times with his small bore gun in each eye so he would never kill again. But once again I prevailed over Speedy Stevo not to kill Porky. There was Tom. And Matt, and 2 Bills and The King, and several others. Then we fled down the corridor and made our way to the far end of the building going up to the back door . It was light early morning and there were only 2 policemen who never noticed us and a chips stand so we sauntered out bought some chips and went quickly in the shadows of the buildings to a main street where we hailed a cab and hired him to take us to the airport which he promptly did. Taking a flight back to Toronto and having eaten and freshened up we both went back to my place totally exhausted and slept 10 hours. So much detail of the Atlanta shootouts has been lost to my memory and Speedo my best friend for 2 years or so is now dead the victim of a vengeance killing by an idiot in a van running him over while on his bicycle quite some time after the Atlanta affair was history. It was not carried much in the Toronto papers.
time 2006 place Toronto ON Canada Stevo, not to be confused with Speedy Stevo, was at my apartment on Colonel Failure Blvd. to protect me from attack by men of the enclosures of The East Toronto Drug Cartel and the huge organization on the earth at that time known simply as "The Cartel". Stevo, later to be known as Omega because of his Love for the Roman Catholic Church especially Mary The Mother of God. And he was head shooter in school at the Cartel at the very early age of 15 years of age. He was coming to protect me from being murdered because I saved his life once and I taught him a lot of Theology and encouraged him very much in his faith and knowledge of God, Father Son and Holy Spirit. At the Last time I spoke to him by phone he was in a divided nation about as far as he could be from Canada and was going to university at theology school to study to be a priest. I taught him a great deal about Jesus Christ and he always was persecuted by the Cartel who basicly kept him hostage. We heard via the airwaves that we were due to be attacked in MY home soon. It was late evening the sky was black and the Lights from the street lights and cars pierced the night air with a glorious tapestry of Light and darkness. Almost at once we were assaulted at my front door through which came two people lookalikes of the king and Enrico. But the Enrico like one was with a fox like face, was over 6 feet tall and had a big stomach like a kangeroo and later there were several more. The small one was like king and was designed to be confused as being the king and was called king I. Both were armed and entered easily seeming to have a key. Both of them went down in a hail of fire from their own weapons and Omega although we didn't try to kill them and they were both unconscious. We propped the foxy one up against the desk and tried to tie the kingI to a chair with rope. He had been shooting and killing people for several weeks and was very dangerous. Stevo and I were worried because he was basicly insane and he had to be stopped. I was appalled but Stevo shot him several times in the eyes with a very small bore pistol to blind him. The tragedy, the cruelty, the anxiety the gnawing fear and the sense that all had been lost. The foxy one came to and suddenly made a run for the balcony and Stevo ran after him into the darkness and they engaged and strove mightily and with one herculian effort Stevo pushed him off the balcony to the concrete 5 floors below. He must have died instantly. We could see him lying on the concrete with no signs of life. A time of great GRIEF AND FEAR AND FOR OURSELVES A TIME OF HUGE REGRET AND we had not started it but we must carry the memory of it even though we were acting totally in self defense as was our first and completely over riding rule. Someone later took the body away. I phoned the king to come and get his man and look after him. However He went to hospital in a taxi. Later I heard he was begging food and shelter door to door from his friends but he was rejected and despised and they refused him. The East Toronto Drug Cartel killed him because he was so crippled and weak. I never felt quite so bad as I did then and the organization also murdered lookalikes to the king , king 2, 4 and 6 if I am not mistaken, for being weak and unable to do their chores or fight. Porky and Bill MURDERED THEM. The law of the jungle. No winners only losers and the fear terrifying us of the judgement of God-Father Son and Holy Spirit. Death, Judgement, Heaven or Hell. Stevo sneaked back to his barracks and I fell into a fitfull fearful sleep. I was always feeling guilty but my priest said I had not sinned because I was insane and had neither full knowledge or full consent and although it was grave matter I always only counterattacked defensively. But these stories and they are as true as I can remember are not to be ignored. I was trapped in a trap and couldn't get out -- no money, no place to hide, shame and courage bundled into a hope that it would sometime all be over and I would be forgiven by Jesus each time I confessed my sins and that it would not lead to an early death and the whole loss of absolutely everything. We were also trying to deal with the cartel cops and The Police dep't of Toronto who for some reason unbetold to us were called THE WESTMINSTER POLICE.. This is the sub story of the girl of the king named carwoman I and Porky and myself and a gun. I was standing in the vines and leaves attached to a trellis several feet above myself and there was a gun on the seat beside her. She picked it up and pointed it at me and pulled the trigger. Nothing happened and so I said "why don't you look down the barrol and see what happened to the bullet." I was scared stiff. She looked down the barrel and her hand slipped and she discharged the gun almost in her face. Down she went and Porky came running over and tried to take care of her but I had disappeared not wanting to be involved in the stupid thing cos Porky and her often threatend me with death verbally so I made myself scarce and waited for Porky and his men would come to my place and attack me with guns but they never succeeded and they got shot themselves by me turning their own shots back to them. She nicked her nose and went to bed for a few days and this was told me by a third party . Apparently she had amnesia and couldn't believe what she had done. I told her later and she was embarrassed. God appeared to save me but it doesn't work any more. I loved the relationship between that girl and my close clan member . I was their best man in a very private it is only the fact that she is a very gracious lady so I have never taken her to court and overlooked her maybe I shouldn't say it ----airhead but weare all mentally ill in my family clan and perhaps the whole world has gone mad and we should all be begging for forgiveness and I hope never to see her in court so I forgive her for the whole thing. I was often queezy with my psychiatric drugs --80 milligrams of Haldol a day when the CPS says dosages would normally be 10 mg. This girl was a bad girl because she tried to get me charged falsely on at least 3 times on false sexual charges --untrue utterly never happenning and I would like to see any one of my church ladies report sexual assault or even involvement when I never get close enough to embrace unless it is some big fat mama bearing down on me and I'm trapped -- women like to ruin you if you are a celibate and demolish your position and ruin you. For God's sake and mine I avoid all sexuality and do it also so I or the lady don't get undone. Twice the police threw her out of the station and the 3rd time the plot just fell apart because the whole thing just suffered a melt down as reality cast its long rays of truthfull light and the whole thing was revealed to be a sham a frame up and it never materialized although there was a lot of graft and corruption in the thing and it all stemmed back to a long running dislike since she took up with a close clan member -- marriage-- and became corrupted herself and so did her daughter and her son in law (no-marriage) and the whole four of them were guilty of adultery, and both of them with incest with their daughter and all practised bisexuality with each other and the mother had rich young men from downtown where she worked for a financial institution into the house they lived in right in front of her husband -- this was told to me by 2 of the involved people including the woman and Enrico and the king.. She was noted to be taking children that she met on the street for a weekend at a time and just leaving them somewhere and for a long while she attended the church called wikka. She was always said to be not too well but all of them costantly said that they always were not too well and yet they would not consult any doctors because they were smitten with the fear of being caught with their heroin and alcohol addictions. By the way -- I have had 3 glasses of wine since 1982 and no sexual relationship with any other person since taking a vow of chastity due to my sinful state then in 1973 and since then I have never had any sexual relations with anybody especially since 1992 when I took the supreme step of a vow of celibacy. I gave up my right to marriage when I lived in a mixed religious community with priests all around and nuns and the faithfull caused me to try to lead the life of a monk, brother or priest successfully and after my years there I was maybe a few years disciplining myself with the help of Jesus, God and the Holy spirit and I also quit all illegal drugs in 1973 and cigarettes in 1982. My sins are countless but not often against the law and I am fortunate that I have had so many people helping me with my problems since 1962. Family, professionals and friends especially my sainted mother who never left me in time of calamity or sickness and really sacrificed even most of her time and passed away peacefully in 2008, at the age of 96 into her 97th year and was the voice of reason and healing in our family and she was robbed blind by a close person who has not yet been called to justice. ..The head man of "the Cartel" was coveting my first book because he wanted to claim it as the story of his life and he thought it was like his life and made him look holy. This book was called "The Experience of the Divine Light and Energies -- The Spiritual Journal of Robert Lind Defries" and was edited extensively and renamed "A Book of Christian Mysticism" by myself --Robert Lind Defries John Ford was in the inner circle of Power of the Cartel in Toronto. He commited suicide because he was old at 66 and they kill their men as they get older. Also John Ford couldn't get my book from me ---the "Rights" ==the book was free on the internet. He was an alcoholic and drug addict as were almost all leaders of the Cartel because one of the main streams of destruction that Lubricated the Cartel were dope and booze. He lived and worked in a large condominium near Lake Ontario in Toronto. The president wanted him to get the book rewritten substituting the idiot presidents name throughout in place of mine and to write a movie about it. I had a covenant with Jesus, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit not to divest my writing from myself until after my passing . The Pres came from his PALACE in the US to personally to get the copyright from me by force. He was spiritual head of the Cartel and god by mostly all the cartel members so prevelant throughout society especially placed to destroy the Christian God's Kingdom. I refused utterly to sell it to him so the two practically naked body guards on each side of him raised their ceremonial muskets and prepared to dispach me to to meet my Maker -- The most Holy Trinity. Having no time I suddenly lunged forward and grsping the left body guards musket back and giving the barrel a quick and powerful twist so it pointed at his face at the horrible face and it discharged blowing up his head. Immediately three very large male hooded cobras issued from his shatered skull and threw themselves on the floor heading for me. I said "Feet don't stop or stumble now and I ran through a maze of rooms and halls and burst out into the hot summer sun in the street. As the war progressed I was forced to use much heavier ordinance to kill the so called "brains" that ran the Cartel which firstly consisted of 5 large glass tanks 6 feet by 5 feet by 6 feet filled with a yellow tint and taint of liquid. In the tanks were 5 ameboid jellyfish slimy looking creatures serving as the "Oracles" to direct the President and the organization around the world. WE had equipment like flame throwers (illegal), bazookas, grenades and grenade launchers, rockets and rocket launchers, short range missiles and the whole world was wrapped up completely with elected governments fighting the cartel once superpowerful and secret, now a small spectre of their former selves. The weakness was in that there were still enough Christians to fight the false religions and troops of the followers of false religion. When the first round of ordinance blew up the area all 5 tanks shattered leaving the amorphous creatures dying on the ground where they quickly began to dehydrate and decay in the summer sun. Lt was wonderful gloriou time because we had struck then a crippling blow to their credibility. what we dident know was that there was a factory where they had 275 new "brains" ready to be trans ported to points around the world in several different forms. However the news spread and one of the few fighter jet/bombers in our possession demolished this factory utterly. The creatures were from the sea and while they were curious to see thay had no intelligence or computer abillities ever--at all. Zero. Allied forceson the side of The Most Holy Trinity and rooted in The Person of the Immortal Godman in Heaven walking all the way with the great men and women involved in defeating the satan bound foe. Allied forces on the side of Right Reason under God Goodness, Peace, Justice and Mercy, LOVE, honesty, truthfulness and Harmony. The Cartel was was largely dependant on graft, bribery, buying people and souls into slavery giving anyone killer drugs and keeping them in bondage to them. Addiction death complete corruption, a monstrocity of deceipt, lies, and calling everything good--bad. and everything bad-- good. The young people in particular were the worst hit having no foundation of faith and being fed by the forces of that centuries anti--Christs. I asked the chappy at Allied Supreme HQ if I could try out some miracles from God that He had given to me. As usual widespread skepticism and disbelief. I was planning to have all the cartel people plus any of the turncoats that were in existence around the world. I would do nothing except say a long and detailed prayer to annhialate ALL SATAN WORSHIPPERS BEYOND A CERTAIN POINT into extinction. Toni the policeman latest version assigned to me and I went to my appartment but he was very edgy about my suggestion. Finally he gave in . I prepared to petition God and said my long and detailed prayer and immediately there was a darkening of the skies every where -- around the world it seems --and suddenly there was a great roar and great flashes of Light and God the Most Holy Trinity worked a Work such as has not been seen since the flood and people were lying everywhere took back His dead. The totals of dead kept rolling in on Toni's black communications gizmo and the numbers rose steadily from around the world and suddenly I realized it. The God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob in His unity with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and the Lord the Holy Spirit had cleansed the whole earth and created a new society free from those sins. We all were and will always be moving in and out of sin but we were a new people. The dragon was slain - the extremely evil Cartel was nowhere to be seen and the long reign of sin had ended and Jesus Christ was on the throne in the minds and men and women and children finally and they were filling with hope and fulfilment. The number of dead rose to over 1,500,000,000. God the Most Holy Trinity has done an infinite number of miracles but nothing on such a scale of this and many Jewish people survived too. We were being renewed like the earth. Thd remainder were ecstatic and were yelling crying and screaming and dancing and embracing each other and kissing each other in an outpouring of emotion all over the world and it was the exuberance of 6,000,000,000 people from every country on earth being liberated. The enemy had cut so deep into God's world. Best wishes for the Summer. I still pray frequently and your prayers and my prayers and the meds are the answer. Thank you for reading. I love you all. May the Peace of the Spirit of God be with your minds, heads and hearts now and forever. May your soul and body live with God in heaven eternally. Yours without ceasing___________ Eternal Love_____________ Robert Lind Defries
Best wishes for the Summer. I still pray frequently and your prayers and my prayers and the meds are the answer. Thank you for reading. I love you all. May the Peace of the Spirit of God be with your minds, heads and hearts now and forever. May your soul and body live with God in heaven eternally.Yours without ceasing___________Eternal Love_____________ Robert Lind Defries
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